I’m not everyone!

My thoughts
While writing this, I’m still crying. I have just finished watching a movie – “Me Before You”. I love that movie. I have actually watched it quite a few times now but I cry every time I watch it. May be not as badly as this time, but I do. Sometimes I think I watch such movies just to cry. (Oh yeah, I have a couple of more movies!) I watch to drain out all the pain I’m feeling. Crying helps me!! I dramatize life. I don’t see it in a simple way. I don’t let go of people or even things for that matter. I have intensity that I’m not so proud of. I’m tough and it is hard not being able to be me and still be okay.…
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Do you smoke??

My thoughts
I’m 21; I have been away from my parents almost whole my teenage. I have experienced life in a little different way then others did or at least that’s what I think to justify my weirdness. Few days back, I saw a post on my Facebook timeline stating something like, “ If I see a person smoking, I loose respect for that person”. Many of you would agree to that post but some of you won’t. I’m one of those who won’t. What struck me hard is that there are people who judge you just by the cigarette you are holding. I mean that is so little of you; sometimes it is not you at all. I know, People will judge you no matter what and you should not be…
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Confused..?

My thoughts
It’s more than a year now that I have written anything here. Well, let’s just say that every time I tried to write down something, I stuck up with some unanswered questions of my own. Every time, I got confused about what exactly am I supposed to write? I used to write things by understanding, situations and emotions of people around me but now that’s just not happening to me. No, it’s not that I don’t understand it anymore, I do! But I don’t find the right words that justify it when i try to write it down. I guess things are changing, may be for good! :) So, I have been insomniac many times before, but today I’m thankful that I finally thought of writing back here. :) I…
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A random diary page

My thoughts
They say:   “There’s always a girl, boy can’t get and there’s always a boy, girl can’t forget.” I agree with it, but not completely. Who says boys don’t have a girl he can’t forget and girls don’t have a guy she can’t get! Think about it, we all have both, the one we can’t get and the one we can’t forget. If you don’t have it yet, someday you’ll have one. And you know something really funny, most of the times it happens that the both feelings are for the same person. Whom we can’t get and can’t even forget, they always cross our mind no matter how far they are or how much they had hurt us. And the only reason behind it, is a single word, easy…
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What a girl should understand about her guy..!

My thoughts
A perfect guy is not a fairy-tale prince charming. Your guy is also a prince but for that you need to know how he actually thinks…   A Guy don’t believe in showing his love and affection to the world out there, because U are the world to him. And he cares about you only! He don’t care how U look or dress up like. He knows U at your worst and best too. He over reacts when he see U with someone else because he feels like his world has gone away, he always want to be the only one for you, the perfect one. But he do understands. Same way when he talks to some girl out there doesn't mean she’s important to him. No one can replace his princess, which is…
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Why LIFE is so complicated??

My thoughts
When our life is messed up we complain, that it’s unfair and why me and all.. Same way when our life goes boring, we complain that there’s no excitement and fun at all. We want everything to happen our own way. Life is all about these questions ‘where we are..?’, ‘where we want to be..?’, people around us, ‘how they feel about us..?’, ’are they important..?‘, ‘am I important to them..?’, ‘am I good or bad..?’. We ask these questions to ourselves but ignore it as if we don’t care but some how we care. We can become selfish and don’t care about others, but this will make a person alone and no one likes to be alone for a longer period of time. I know sometimes it’s good to…
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Have you ever thought what you want to be?? (A random diary page)

My thoughts
I’m 18, a student. Soon, I’ll be called a graduate. But it’s not my identity. I want to do something that makes my mark on people around me, on world. I want to be something so that people remember me and the things that I have done.. Making an identity to me means following my own heart, I don’t want to be that so called human beings who are actually ‘robots’ having a boring, not so happening life. I want do something that gives everyday an opportunity  to prove, that my life is worth living. I don’t want to regret anything that many of us do.. I know I’ll be that something one day, and people will know me! It is said that “life is what you make it”, I’ll…
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People say everything happens for Good, I believe something actually happens for good.

My thoughts
It’s a common human nature that, when something happens out of the way we have expected it to be, we feel sorrowful. We don’t realize that it can be the best thing that can ever happen to us. It takes a lot for us to digest that something unexpected. But as everyone says “‘Time’ heals everything”, right? Same way, this ‘Time’ only makes us realize too that why it doesn't happened the way we want it to be! If you observe, everything happens for some reasons. Sometimes it’s good for us. Sometimes it’s good for someone, somewhere we may don’t even know. And actually our lives are busy that we don’t get time to observe such things. And we humans are so selfish that when even we get time, we look for our…
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A random diary page..!

My thoughts
Life wasn't always (or I say most of the times) favorable to me too, but most of the people who know the only HIMAL was of a thought that I’m expecting more. Some laughed at me, many ignored. I don’t have any problem with those who ignored it, feel sorry for those who laughed at me and actually happy with those who said I’m expecting a little more because they actually tried to know what my problem is. I’m not happy because they were right I’m happy because they at least tried, laughing and ignoring isn't that hard, where trying is. I don’t like those who comments randomly on anyone without knowing their story, without knowing what their journey is is all about or what was their past! Luckily, I have very few who…
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This is the time to live life from your heart..

My thoughts
I have seen people who are afraid of taking risk, but in actuality they are scared about what would be their future if they followed their heart. Does anyone of us know about our future?? No, nahh?! Then what’s the matter of getting tensed about something which is a black box to us. You, answer me something “what should be our age to follow our heart??” Today I suddenly realized that this is the only time that we have to do whatsoever we want to. People like us can’t follow our heart because of the society rules, but my friends, I think some rules are made to be broken. You know your limits, and you have to have self control too. We were not mature enough in our childhood, we…
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