UNASKED

It’s middle of the day; I see your name pop on my screen and contemplate over the times you cross my mind unasked…
 
I’m trying to wake up; I wonder when you went to sleep last night?
I’m making coffee; I remember the phase you obsessed on it.
I’m surrounded by kids; I recall the way you smile when you see a child.
I’m preparing a meal; I avoid that dish we both love.
I’m talking to someone; I think about all the things I wanted to tell you.
I’m listening to songs; I cannot bring myself to skip the song you hooked me on.
I’m having an argument; I muse on the times you simply gave up reasoning with me.
I’m looking at moon; I think back to all the times I had told you to see it too.
I’m eating ice cream; I ponder when did I weld your name with my favorite flavor?
I’m trying to sleep; I expect you texting me how you wish to run far away.
 
…and while you cross my mind in all I do, I remind myself,
I would rather feel lonely without you than by “almost” being with you.